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another chapter after this one..
huaaa.... i need to think of the best ending for them..
it's as long as the previous chapter..
*runs before got killed*
Title : Annoyingly Addictive (Chapter 7/8)
Author :![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
keeconk
Characters : Nishikato, Ryo-centric
Rating : PG 15 (just in case)
Disclaimer : i dun like to say anything about this..
Summary : Ryo needs to have a nice talk with Shige..
A.N.: it's unbeta'ed.. and their ages are abit messed up here.. it's AU..
( Chapter 1: You Are Officially Annoying! )
( Chapter 2: Massu, You Gotta Be Kidding Me!!! )
( Chapter 3: Reality Speaking )
( Chapter 4: Flings!! )
( Chapter 5: Not Much Different Either )
( Chapter 6: Acceptance )
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Chapter 7: Just Right
“Ne, Nishikido-kun,”
“What?”
“This is embarrassing,”
“What’s embarrassing?”
“This!” Shige groans as he pulls out his hand, where my hand is currently nicely wrapped around it. I look at him while frowning. I try to ignore his complain and pull him as I continue walking. Unexpectedly, Shige pulls back, refusing to walk any further. He tries to let go of his hand from my grip, which only makes me hold his hand even tighter.
“Oh come on, Shige! What’s wrong with me holding your hand? I held your hand last night all the way to my house, and you weren’t complaining,” I groan.
“Because there was no one else around! It’s embarrassing to walk to school with you holding my hand like this! And please stop making me confuse. I don’t even know whether you are actually returning my feeling or just making fun of my feeling,” Shige snapped.
“Fuck, Shige! Stop being such a moron! I guess I am returning your feeling. Okay, I’m still not quite sure whether I like or not, but I’m holding your hand because I want to. Now stop complaining and start to walk. We’re going to be late,” I say as I whack his head hard.
Shige does stop complaining. He doesn’t say anything else but pouting all the way until we reach school. When we’re getting nearer to the school date, Shige suddenly pulls his hand as hard as he can and runs ahead. “Hey! What are you doing?”
“I said it’s embarrassing! I’m going first. See you later,” he says as he stops for awhile. He runs to Tegoshi who just shows up from the junction. Tegoshi grins as he sees Shige running towards him. Come to think of it, I haven’t figured out about what actually is going on with Massu and Tegoshi.
“If you keep staring at him as if you want to eat him, people might notice you know,” someone wraps his arms around my neck. I sigh. I don’t have to turn my head just to find out who it is.
“Pi, seriously. Get your hands off before I kick your ass,”
“Huahaha.. You seriously need to grow taller, Ryo-chan. It amuses me so much that I still actually can clearly see what’s in front although I wrap my arms around you. Drink more milk,” says Yamapi, half laughing.
“Ne, Yamapi. Stop making fun of people’s height. It’s nothing Ryo-chan can do with his height. It’s already in the genes. No matter how much milk he drinks. Massu drinks milk everyday, and he’s not that much taller than Ryo-chan,” says Koyama suddenly pops up to my front. “Am I right, Massu?” adds Koyama.
Just as if these people are popcorn, now Massu pops up just right on my left hand side. He nods in agreement with Koyama. “Why the fuck the three of you popped up out of no where at once?” I complain as I shove Yamapi’s hands from my neck. Yamapi just laughs, while Koyama smiles at him.
“What’s wrong with you, Buta? You haven’t said a word,” I ask.
“Nothing, really,” he replies as he tries to smile. It’s just so obvious that something is bothering him. You know, instead of those brightly smiles he always pulls out, it’s just a normal smile on his face. And normal smile doesn’t suit him!
“Did something happen?” asks Koyama.
“Ehm.. Yesterday, Shoon came over to my place. And we had this conversation that actually made me feel a little uneasy,” says Massu.
“Then?” asks Koyama againt, a little bit gentler.
“He says he likes me. That gave me a huge shock, well, because he told me that he has a girlfriend, and it turned out to be just an act he played because he was jealous of Tegoshi. And the thing is, I’ve been trying to move on when I thought that he really has girlfriend and started to hang out with someone else other than him. That’s why I’ve been going out with Tegoshi a lot. And what’s worse is that I think I like Tegoshi now,” he explains.
I chock, as well as Yamapi. Koyama blinks his eyes a couple of time, not believing what he just heard. Yamapi puts both hands on his head, looks so confused, as he scotches down. He murmurs something that I believe is something saying that he might be dreaming. Koyama takes a long deep breath as he puts both hands on Massu’s shoulders.
“Are you serious?”
“Yeah,” he replies as he nods. “But then, I do still like Shoon as well. This is really confusing. It’s not possible to equally like two persons, right? It’s not humanly possible,” he adds.
Before any of us manage to say anything to him, the school bell rings. The four of us quickly run to the locker to get our indoor shoes. We separate with Massu when we pass the stairs because Massu’s class is on the second floor. Sadly for us, our homeroom teacher is already in class. And of course, as a class monitor, I get the worst lecture for coming late. I didn’t even freaking want to be a class monitor! It’s just because everyone voted for me!
During the lunch break, I accidentally bump into Shige when taking the tray from its rack. Shige blurts and quickly turns away. Luckily for me, my hand is quick enough to grab his arm before he goes any further. I drag him all the way to canteen’s toilet so I can have a nice talk.
“Are you avoiding me?” I ask as I pierce my eyes at him right after I make sure that no one else is around
“N-no I’m n-not,”
“Hahaha.. Very funny. You turned away when I bumped to you just now. What’s wrong with you? All I did was holding your hand. I didn’t kick your ass when you kissed me. And in case you don’t remember, I kissed you back. So I don’t see why you have to avoid me,” I groan.
“Well, that’s the thing,” he gulps before he continues. “It makes me nervous now each time I talk to you or walk with you,” he adds.
“Ha?”
“I was expecting you to push me away when I kissed you, but you didn’t! And you even held my hand all the way back yesterday. How do you expect me to react? I’ve been gay my entire life and it was my first time confessing to someone I like, okay” he says as he pouts his mouth.
“I don’t know. Be happy about it, maybe. Oh come on. For me, this is just as weird as it is to you. My mind told me to push you away, but I didn’t. So maybe, I do indeed like you,”
“Then that will make you gay. And I know how much you hate the word gay,” he replies.
“I’m not gay!”
“But..”
“Shige, shut up! I said I’m not gay! And I have no idea why I kissed you back! Is that even matter!? I mean, aren’t you supposed to be happy that I kissed you back?”
“I am happy that you kissed me back. But, I just want to know how you feel about me. That’s all,” he replies.
I go silent. I don’t know what to say. I have no idea how I actually feel about him. When I held his hand last night, and this morning, the only thing I felt was that I just did not want to let go. I thought that I might be in love with him, but I’m not sure now. The whole this is so confusing. It doesn’t make sense at all. I still believe that I’m straight, but in the same time I know that there’s something when I did not want to let go of his hand.
Shige makes his way towards the door, and I don’t stop him.
Shit! I’m so doomed.
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I’m not in a good mood. I think Koyama and Yamapi notice that. I keep snapping at a tiny mistake I do or someone else does. When I was told to read out loud from the book by my English teacher, the tone I used was so fucked up that my teacher himself found it scary to even correct any mistake I did.
Right after school, I wait for Shige in the school gate. There’s a possibility that he might be using the back gate, but I take my chance. I need to talk to him again. It’s not only him that needs to know how I feel. I need to know about how I feel as well. I’ve dated and fell in love with many girls before, and this doesn’t feel any different at all.
Luckily from me, I see Shige walks towards my direction. He notices me, and yet he doesn’t turn away. I keep my eyes set at him, and so does he. He stops just a few steps away from me. We stare at each other, trying to find the courage to say something.
“We need to have another talk,” both of us blurt out at the same time.
We go silent. I giggle a little as somehow I find it a bit funny. Shige smiles at what the two of us just did. “Well, what about me coming over to your place? Maybe we can talk more casually that way,” I say at the end. Shige just nods with a smile.
It’s the second time for me to go to his place. Nothing has changed. His room is still as tidy as it was when I came over last time. The room is a little bit smaller than mine, but it’s an acceptable size. At least, his room has tv, while my room has nothing else but a bed, CD player, drawer, and study table. Shige puts his bag on his desk and takes off his blazer. I do the same thing. He takes my blazer and hangs it just beside his in the clothes’ hooks.
“So, what do you want to talk about?” he asks as he turns to me.
“I don’t know. It’s basically just the same thing as what I said earlier at school,” I reply.
Shige takes a deep breath. He leans his back to the wall behind him as he looks at me. There’s something in his expression. It’s as if he is frustrated. I never see this kind of expression before. As clumsy as he is, Shige is considered as a cheerful kid. And not even once he looks sad or angry when I make fun of him.
“Shige, I’m sorry. I’m confused. This whole thing is confusing,” I add.
“It’s okay. I don’t blame you,” he says as he walks to his desk. He stares for about a whole minute before he takes a DVD from the shelves on top of the desk. He turns and tries to smile, “Well, since you are here, what about watching a movie?”
So here we are, sitting next to each other with our back against the bed, watching Shinobi. Okay, the choice of movie might be a little weird, but I somehow enjoy watching it with him. I stand up, deciding that the light is a little bit a disturbance, and turn off the light. Shige glace at me as I sit back next to him.
“What?”
“Nothing. You reminded me of Koyama, he hates to watch DVD with lights on,” he giggles.
“Yeah, I think he influences me. I need to stop hanging out too often with him or Yamapi. Or I might turn into this cheerful guy, spreading love to everyone to show his care to them like Koyama, or this cool guy that has problem in showing any kind of expression in his face like Yamapi,” I joke around.
Shige laughs as I say that. I just smile at him in return. He sets his eyes back at the TV screen. Somehow, I can feel that he’s moving a little closer to me slowly. Our arms touch, but I do nothing. Instead, I uncross my legs, and place one of them right beside his, as I lain it against his leg.
I’m not pretty sure what it is, but it feels so comfortable to lean to each other without saying a word through out the whole movie. The next thing I know, my hand reach out his hand. My fingers slip themselves between his fingers as I hold it tight. As if the whole room goes silent, I can hear clearly Shige gasping. He tries to pull his hand, but gives in at the end as I refuse to let go.
“You don’t have to do this,” he says.
“I’m not doing this because of you. I told you that I want to hold your hand,”
“Why?”
“It just feels right,” I reply.
Shige stops asking. He even finally holds my hand back. Once again, I feel the warmth I once felt through his hand. Suddenly Shige pulls our hands to his laps. He puts his other hand on top of our hands, brushing his thumb gently on my fingers. It feels even more right when he holds my hand with both of his hands. It feels so right that I finally know what Koyama means by just wait and see what your heart makes you do next.
“Shige,”
“Hm?” he says with eyes still on the TV.
“Look at me,”
As he does, I lean forward and press out lips against each other. He looks surprise but he closes his eyes as he’s drawn into the kiss. I close my eyes as well while putting my other hand against his blushing cheek. Slowly I can feel Shige parts his lips away from each other a little.
My hand starts to move from his cheek to his neck. I suck on his top lip, then nod a little and brush my lip on his bottom lip, for a second or two. After I manage to push my tongue in, I place the tip of my tongue on the tip of his tongue. Shige’s body goes a little weaker as I do that. He falls backward slowly.
“Don’t ruin the fun, moron,” I say as grab his waist so he won’t fall any further.
“S-sorry,” he replies as he blushes. His pink blushing cheeks turn to bright reddish cheeks.
Before I manage to kiss him back, he places his index finger against my lips. He looks at me deeply with his cat-look-alike eyes. “Why are you kissing me?” he asks. I pull his finger from my lips as I smile. I give him a quick peck and place my forehead against his. “Because this one feels as right as holding your hand,” I reply before landing another kiss.
As the two of us are drawn deeper to the kiss, I’m now pretty sure that I am indeed in love.
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one more chapter before it all ends.. huaaa... it so sad that it will end soon!! probably i will have a one shot after i wrote the final chapter on what happen with TegoMasShoon.. hahaha.. no, not probably.. i'm obligated to do so after what i did to them.. anyway, hope u enjoy this!!
another chapter after this one..
huaaa.... i need to think of the best ending for them..
it's as long as the previous chapter..
*runs before got killed*
Title : Annoyingly Addictive (Chapter 7/8)
Author :
keeconkCharacters : Nishikato, Ryo-centric
Rating : PG 15 (just in case)
Disclaimer : i dun like to say anything about this..
Summary : Ryo needs to have a nice talk with Shige..
A.N.: it's unbeta'ed.. and their ages are abit messed up here.. it's AU..
( Chapter 1: You Are Officially Annoying! )
( Chapter 2: Massu, You Gotta Be Kidding Me!!! )
( Chapter 3: Reality Speaking )
( Chapter 4: Flings!! )
( Chapter 5: Not Much Different Either )
( Chapter 6: Acceptance )
------------------
Chapter 7: Just Right
“Ne, Nishikido-kun,”
“What?”
“This is embarrassing,”
“What’s embarrassing?”
“This!” Shige groans as he pulls out his hand, where my hand is currently nicely wrapped around it. I look at him while frowning. I try to ignore his complain and pull him as I continue walking. Unexpectedly, Shige pulls back, refusing to walk any further. He tries to let go of his hand from my grip, which only makes me hold his hand even tighter.
“Oh come on, Shige! What’s wrong with me holding your hand? I held your hand last night all the way to my house, and you weren’t complaining,” I groan.
“Because there was no one else around! It’s embarrassing to walk to school with you holding my hand like this! And please stop making me confuse. I don’t even know whether you are actually returning my feeling or just making fun of my feeling,” Shige snapped.
“Fuck, Shige! Stop being such a moron! I guess I am returning your feeling. Okay, I’m still not quite sure whether I like or not, but I’m holding your hand because I want to. Now stop complaining and start to walk. We’re going to be late,” I say as I whack his head hard.
Shige does stop complaining. He doesn’t say anything else but pouting all the way until we reach school. When we’re getting nearer to the school date, Shige suddenly pulls his hand as hard as he can and runs ahead. “Hey! What are you doing?”
“I said it’s embarrassing! I’m going first. See you later,” he says as he stops for awhile. He runs to Tegoshi who just shows up from the junction. Tegoshi grins as he sees Shige running towards him. Come to think of it, I haven’t figured out about what actually is going on with Massu and Tegoshi.
“If you keep staring at him as if you want to eat him, people might notice you know,” someone wraps his arms around my neck. I sigh. I don’t have to turn my head just to find out who it is.
“Pi, seriously. Get your hands off before I kick your ass,”
“Huahaha.. You seriously need to grow taller, Ryo-chan. It amuses me so much that I still actually can clearly see what’s in front although I wrap my arms around you. Drink more milk,” says Yamapi, half laughing.
“Ne, Yamapi. Stop making fun of people’s height. It’s nothing Ryo-chan can do with his height. It’s already in the genes. No matter how much milk he drinks. Massu drinks milk everyday, and he’s not that much taller than Ryo-chan,” says Koyama suddenly pops up to my front. “Am I right, Massu?” adds Koyama.
Just as if these people are popcorn, now Massu pops up just right on my left hand side. He nods in agreement with Koyama. “Why the fuck the three of you popped up out of no where at once?” I complain as I shove Yamapi’s hands from my neck. Yamapi just laughs, while Koyama smiles at him.
“What’s wrong with you, Buta? You haven’t said a word,” I ask.
“Nothing, really,” he replies as he tries to smile. It’s just so obvious that something is bothering him. You know, instead of those brightly smiles he always pulls out, it’s just a normal smile on his face. And normal smile doesn’t suit him!
“Did something happen?” asks Koyama.
“Ehm.. Yesterday, Shoon came over to my place. And we had this conversation that actually made me feel a little uneasy,” says Massu.
“Then?” asks Koyama againt, a little bit gentler.
“He says he likes me. That gave me a huge shock, well, because he told me that he has a girlfriend, and it turned out to be just an act he played because he was jealous of Tegoshi. And the thing is, I’ve been trying to move on when I thought that he really has girlfriend and started to hang out with someone else other than him. That’s why I’ve been going out with Tegoshi a lot. And what’s worse is that I think I like Tegoshi now,” he explains.
I chock, as well as Yamapi. Koyama blinks his eyes a couple of time, not believing what he just heard. Yamapi puts both hands on his head, looks so confused, as he scotches down. He murmurs something that I believe is something saying that he might be dreaming. Koyama takes a long deep breath as he puts both hands on Massu’s shoulders.
“Are you serious?”
“Yeah,” he replies as he nods. “But then, I do still like Shoon as well. This is really confusing. It’s not possible to equally like two persons, right? It’s not humanly possible,” he adds.
Before any of us manage to say anything to him, the school bell rings. The four of us quickly run to the locker to get our indoor shoes. We separate with Massu when we pass the stairs because Massu’s class is on the second floor. Sadly for us, our homeroom teacher is already in class. And of course, as a class monitor, I get the worst lecture for coming late. I didn’t even freaking want to be a class monitor! It’s just because everyone voted for me!
During the lunch break, I accidentally bump into Shige when taking the tray from its rack. Shige blurts and quickly turns away. Luckily for me, my hand is quick enough to grab his arm before he goes any further. I drag him all the way to canteen’s toilet so I can have a nice talk.
“Are you avoiding me?” I ask as I pierce my eyes at him right after I make sure that no one else is around
“N-no I’m n-not,”
“Hahaha.. Very funny. You turned away when I bumped to you just now. What’s wrong with you? All I did was holding your hand. I didn’t kick your ass when you kissed me. And in case you don’t remember, I kissed you back. So I don’t see why you have to avoid me,” I groan.
“Well, that’s the thing,” he gulps before he continues. “It makes me nervous now each time I talk to you or walk with you,” he adds.
“Ha?”
“I was expecting you to push me away when I kissed you, but you didn’t! And you even held my hand all the way back yesterday. How do you expect me to react? I’ve been gay my entire life and it was my first time confessing to someone I like, okay” he says as he pouts his mouth.
“I don’t know. Be happy about it, maybe. Oh come on. For me, this is just as weird as it is to you. My mind told me to push you away, but I didn’t. So maybe, I do indeed like you,”
“Then that will make you gay. And I know how much you hate the word gay,” he replies.
“I’m not gay!”
“But..”
“Shige, shut up! I said I’m not gay! And I have no idea why I kissed you back! Is that even matter!? I mean, aren’t you supposed to be happy that I kissed you back?”
“I am happy that you kissed me back. But, I just want to know how you feel about me. That’s all,” he replies.
I go silent. I don’t know what to say. I have no idea how I actually feel about him. When I held his hand last night, and this morning, the only thing I felt was that I just did not want to let go. I thought that I might be in love with him, but I’m not sure now. The whole this is so confusing. It doesn’t make sense at all. I still believe that I’m straight, but in the same time I know that there’s something when I did not want to let go of his hand.
Shige makes his way towards the door, and I don’t stop him.
Shit! I’m so doomed.
I’m not in a good mood. I think Koyama and Yamapi notice that. I keep snapping at a tiny mistake I do or someone else does. When I was told to read out loud from the book by my English teacher, the tone I used was so fucked up that my teacher himself found it scary to even correct any mistake I did.
Right after school, I wait for Shige in the school gate. There’s a possibility that he might be using the back gate, but I take my chance. I need to talk to him again. It’s not only him that needs to know how I feel. I need to know about how I feel as well. I’ve dated and fell in love with many girls before, and this doesn’t feel any different at all.
Luckily from me, I see Shige walks towards my direction. He notices me, and yet he doesn’t turn away. I keep my eyes set at him, and so does he. He stops just a few steps away from me. We stare at each other, trying to find the courage to say something.
“We need to have another talk,” both of us blurt out at the same time.
We go silent. I giggle a little as somehow I find it a bit funny. Shige smiles at what the two of us just did. “Well, what about me coming over to your place? Maybe we can talk more casually that way,” I say at the end. Shige just nods with a smile.
It’s the second time for me to go to his place. Nothing has changed. His room is still as tidy as it was when I came over last time. The room is a little bit smaller than mine, but it’s an acceptable size. At least, his room has tv, while my room has nothing else but a bed, CD player, drawer, and study table. Shige puts his bag on his desk and takes off his blazer. I do the same thing. He takes my blazer and hangs it just beside his in the clothes’ hooks.
“So, what do you want to talk about?” he asks as he turns to me.
“I don’t know. It’s basically just the same thing as what I said earlier at school,” I reply.
Shige takes a deep breath. He leans his back to the wall behind him as he looks at me. There’s something in his expression. It’s as if he is frustrated. I never see this kind of expression before. As clumsy as he is, Shige is considered as a cheerful kid. And not even once he looks sad or angry when I make fun of him.
“Shige, I’m sorry. I’m confused. This whole thing is confusing,” I add.
“It’s okay. I don’t blame you,” he says as he walks to his desk. He stares for about a whole minute before he takes a DVD from the shelves on top of the desk. He turns and tries to smile, “Well, since you are here, what about watching a movie?”
So here we are, sitting next to each other with our back against the bed, watching Shinobi. Okay, the choice of movie might be a little weird, but I somehow enjoy watching it with him. I stand up, deciding that the light is a little bit a disturbance, and turn off the light. Shige glace at me as I sit back next to him.
“What?”
“Nothing. You reminded me of Koyama, he hates to watch DVD with lights on,” he giggles.
“Yeah, I think he influences me. I need to stop hanging out too often with him or Yamapi. Or I might turn into this cheerful guy, spreading love to everyone to show his care to them like Koyama, or this cool guy that has problem in showing any kind of expression in his face like Yamapi,” I joke around.
Shige laughs as I say that. I just smile at him in return. He sets his eyes back at the TV screen. Somehow, I can feel that he’s moving a little closer to me slowly. Our arms touch, but I do nothing. Instead, I uncross my legs, and place one of them right beside his, as I lain it against his leg.
I’m not pretty sure what it is, but it feels so comfortable to lean to each other without saying a word through out the whole movie. The next thing I know, my hand reach out his hand. My fingers slip themselves between his fingers as I hold it tight. As if the whole room goes silent, I can hear clearly Shige gasping. He tries to pull his hand, but gives in at the end as I refuse to let go.
“You don’t have to do this,” he says.
“I’m not doing this because of you. I told you that I want to hold your hand,”
“Why?”
“It just feels right,” I reply.
Shige stops asking. He even finally holds my hand back. Once again, I feel the warmth I once felt through his hand. Suddenly Shige pulls our hands to his laps. He puts his other hand on top of our hands, brushing his thumb gently on my fingers. It feels even more right when he holds my hand with both of his hands. It feels so right that I finally know what Koyama means by just wait and see what your heart makes you do next.
“Shige,”
“Hm?” he says with eyes still on the TV.
“Look at me,”
As he does, I lean forward and press out lips against each other. He looks surprise but he closes his eyes as he’s drawn into the kiss. I close my eyes as well while putting my other hand against his blushing cheek. Slowly I can feel Shige parts his lips away from each other a little.
My hand starts to move from his cheek to his neck. I suck on his top lip, then nod a little and brush my lip on his bottom lip, for a second or two. After I manage to push my tongue in, I place the tip of my tongue on the tip of his tongue. Shige’s body goes a little weaker as I do that. He falls backward slowly.
“Don’t ruin the fun, moron,” I say as grab his waist so he won’t fall any further.
“S-sorry,” he replies as he blushes. His pink blushing cheeks turn to bright reddish cheeks.
Before I manage to kiss him back, he places his index finger against my lips. He looks at me deeply with his cat-look-alike eyes. “Why are you kissing me?” he asks. I pull his finger from my lips as I smile. I give him a quick peck and place my forehead against his. “Because this one feels as right as holding your hand,” I reply before landing another kiss.
As the two of us are drawn deeper to the kiss, I’m now pretty sure that I am indeed in love.
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one more chapter before it all ends.. huaaa... it so sad that it will end soon!! probably i will have a one shot after i wrote the final chapter on what happen with TegoMasShoon.. hahaha.. no, not probably.. i'm obligated to do so after what i did to them.. anyway, hope u enjoy this!!
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Date: 2008-07-02 10:26 am (UTC)i have difficulty in choosing which one is better for massu as well!! XXP
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