a need to lie

[kokikee]

i'm not good at lying.. really.. i'm not..
i seriously need to learn how to lie..
i js reallise that sometimes being honest could hurt people around you..
i don't want to hurt anybody..
especially those i cherish the most..
especially the person i love the most..
i need to shut my big mouth up..

i hate myself for doing what i did..
and i realise sorry is not enough..

i never feel so god damn guilty in my entire life..

Comments

[rinhriveiel.livejournal.com]

I don't know what happened...

But I love you. ♥ *hug*

[keeconk.livejournal.com]

thank u so much rin..
i love u too.. *hugs*

do u have ym or msn by any chance?

[rinhriveiel.livejournal.com]

I have msn, though I never use it (I use AIM). I *could* use it to talk to you, if you want - but I need to know about what time you get online, what with time zones and crap. O_O I have noooo clue what our difference is. >_

[keeconk.livejournal.com]

hahahahaa.. about 12 hours difference maybe.. lol.. it's 2.11am here rit now..

i always online when i;m home.. usually up until morning.. depends on wat time i decide that i cant stay up any more and that i need to sleep..

i dun sleep sometimes.. lol.. add me!! on msn!! if u dun mind.. hehehehe..

[rinhriveiel.livejournal.com]

What's your sn? I'll add you now. Mmk, well, we're 13 hrs. different. lol. it's 1:18PM here. XD Kind of sucks, because I'm never on at this tiiime. I get on late at night, too (usually from around 10-2AM). @_@

[keeconk.livejournal.com]

keeconk3rmd@hotmail.com

em.. 10-2am means 11am-3pm here.. hahaha.. i'll be usually on campus during that time.. oh time difference sucks to the max!! rofl..

[rinhriveiel.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm on it now. O_O

Mine's Erulisse@msn.com

I just added you